The production I worked on for the last 2 days was incredible. Mostly it was awesome knowing exactly what was expected of me on my first day. "Do you know how to use walkies?" "YES! I really really do!" It was also awesome to see different people performing the various positions. In my head I was like "that's not how Nino would do it. That's different than how Anne ran things."
Yesterday I went to the TiMER DVD release party which was AWESOME and, again, surreal. Corina and I had a beautiful, hilarious chat with Eric Jungmann who played the Duckie-like character in Not Another Teen Movie (amongst many MANY other things (including TiMER)) AND he is going to be in an episode of True Blood-- thus marking the JILLIONTH sign that I need to watch that damn show! There were other notable people there, but I don't feel like it would be very cool of me to list them. But it was an open bar and the waiters, all probably trying to make it in acting, were GORGEOUS. Like... almost TOO good looking. But the best part, for me, was getting invited to such an event and being able to bring someone! Surreal. My life hasn't ceased being surreal.
I hate to tamper with this post by adding negativity, but I'm starting to recognize my extreme discomfort about where I live. It is DEFINITELY my own neuroses, which makes it even worse to admit.
1. Davida is ALWAYS home. And she ALWAYS wants to chat. Which means that I purposefully don't go home at times when I know she might be outside. The worst is that she usually does her horse chores around 9:15pm, but it's not that reliable. So I won't come home between 8:15pm and 10:15pm. And I feel guilty about it because I know she wants to chat with me so I try, every 3ish days to make sure I say hello. I don't know if anyone else would ever have these problems. It's just, I don't want to do my laundry while she is here. And I DEFINITELY don't want to cook when she is here. And she's ALWAYS here. I'm pretty sure these are problems I took with me from home. I ONLY got things done when no one was around because then I wouldn't be bothering anyone and no one would be looking over my shoulder and giving me advice and... judging things. And sometimes I don't want to have a chat. When I say sometimes, I mean almost all the time. I've been chatting ALL DAY!
2. (really 1b) In the morning, I like to sit on my side stoop and read or ... whatever. However, one of the dogs has finally learned this and barks to come and see me. So then Davida knows I'm around and awake and I have to go back inside. Own neuroses. I know, I know!
3. Davida, as I've possibly mentioned already, is VERY involved in everything I do. Which I HATE, even though it is so nice and kind that she's taken an interest in me. Regardless, today was my FIRST day of not working. I'm still actively going for a talent agency, and I'm going to look into temp places blah blah. However, today she brought up a friend who wants someone to work in her office for $15 an hour, which I've never made in my life. Davida said that it is a production job because they do the production for all of these horse shows... although I don't believe they are televised or anything like that. I just... don't want to do that. I don't want to end up spending the next 3 years doing something that will mean nothing on my resume. But Davida already called and... I don't know how to tell her that right now I don't want her help. She acted like it was the best thing ever because even though it's not movies, it's only a few blocks down. How do I tell her that proximity is actually a downside.
I just... don't know how long I should stay here. I know I wouldn't have these problems if I was living with a peer. It's just my own mother was not NEARLY so active in my life. I just don't know how to talk to this woman when all I want is for her to like me. And she calls me her daughter all the time. Ugh. And I fully intend on trying to get some men in my life soon, and if I can't even cook in my house, how is this going to work? I don't even want Davida to know that I drink soda! Today she mentioned her shock that she slept until 9am, and I told her that I slept WAY longer than that. She was surprised. Surprised that I would wake up later than 9am. She doesn't know me at all, and that's TOTALLY not her fault.
The point is, I spend LARGE quantities of my freetime in various grocery store parking lots. I read, eat, and talk on the phone there for HOURS every single day. I only recently realized that if someone was to see that in a movie, it would look really sad.
In better news, I might get to work with my supervisor (EX-supervisor-- WAH WAH)'s husband for a few days, which would be AWESOME!! And if I don't have a job by next week-- likely-- I might work more on the production I just helped with the past two days. By the way, they even made me drive the actress, which was bizarre since that was my job for The Perfect Family. I wonder if two days of PA work is enough to put it on my resume.
1 comment:
1) ANY amount of days is enough to put on your resume if you've done it and if there is someone around to confirm that.
2) You don't have to feel weird about what you are doing to avoid Davida. If you don't want someone constantly involved in every aspect of your life then that is your preference and you don't have to feel like it's a bad thing to try to avoid her a bit. I understand where you are coming from on a different level. The last thing you want is to feel uncomfortable in your own home. I am a proponent of you moving if and when you can.
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