An Email to my Mother

hey mom,

i just wanted to tell you about my first day of classes... and i was going to call you but then i didn't and now it's too late.

background: i overdrew my banking account, as you know, and while i deposited all of my checks, they haven't processed yet so i can't buy anything (btw, in case you're curious, i overdrew because i transfered enough money to come home and buy all the crap i needed ($250 ish) but i FORGOT that i just bought my books so i overdrew by like $200 and they charged me about $200... so that SUCKS!!!... but i know it's in the past).

thus, i have NO FOOD!! i have $500 in convenience points, but i had to spend $35 on extra books plus i had to get folders... and then i needed mayonaise which was like $3.50 so i could eat tuna instead of pasta again! and i don't want to waste my meals because i only have 47 for the sememster... which is about 3 per week.

so this morning i woke up, didn't eat, took a shower, and went to see about this new job. now i got $1466 for work study, so i basically can only work like 8 hours a week. BUT the lady didn't make me have a recommendation or anything. and i get to work for like... a few hours at a time... so im working 3 hours at most and it's mostly just making copies and delivering stuff, and one of the days kelly told me you basically don't do anything. so that's GREAT!! and TECHNICALLY i could probably get another job because it's all during times that i COULD have class... so all my afternoons are free.

BUUUUUUT i would basically only get like $50 a week... which is like... JUST enough money to live on. so im a little scared. AND i don't WANT to get another job because i have chords and my classwork, which ill talk about in a second.

SOOOO after i got done at the office (10-12pm), i had to find something cheap to eat. i ended up getting a little $2 thing of hummus and crackers and a $1.50 tiny thing of tuna salad and crackers (im sure you know what im talking about) and a can of coke. it was actually filling though, and i sat outside. it's been BEAUTIFUL!

then i went to my first and only class of the day which is video production and it's from 1-4pm. so, i always get nervous with these television classes because i feel like im soooo underexperienced! BUT he asked us (about 20 in the class) how many had experience with cameras and like... 1/3 raised their hand. then my professor told them to try and forget that stuff because it's harder when you already have experience and that he works as though everyone is brand new to it. it made me feel SOOOO good!! and then he went around and asked everyone where they were from and what they were interested in, and everyone seemed just as unsure as me. AND we're all juniors. i just felt OVERWHELMINGLY good.. like maybe everything is going to turn out fine with my future career and everything... because i can just work really hard and then people like kelly will recommend me to a great position and that's how ill be fine!! it was SOOOOO GREAT FEELING!!!

then he started talking to us about terms and important stuff about film and cameras and i already knew a lot of the terms... and everything he said about this film he showed us, i THOUGHT!! i was ELATED!!

we also got a 15 minute break, and a girl came over to me and asked if i was in her sex and gender class last year (which i was), and then we started talking and shes double majoring in tv and anthro!!!!!! which is what i want to do!!! so she was telling me how i should do it, and then the girl across from me came back from the bathroom and overheard what we were talking about and SHE'S ALSO MAJORING IN TV AND ANTHRO!! it was SOOOO LUCKY!!!!!!!! PLUS the first girl is in my tv writing class too!!

PLUS, im taking TWO production courses this semester, and the other one im pretty scared of because the professor got REALLY bad ratings on ratemyprofessor.com and i tried to avoid her but the other professor quit so i got her. BUUUUT i think that even if i feel like i dont' have a lot of experience in her class, at least i feel comfortable in this other class and ill be getting experience from there.

after class i went to get the rest of my ocs checks and i actually had 3 instead of 2 so that was GREAT!! then i deposited them!

then i ate at hillel with rachael because amanda started her job there tonight.

then i did all the pre-work for my production class... i discovered that there was a south campus computer lab!! AND it has recycling so i can bring my recycling when i need to print something!!!

then i hung out with caroline!

it was a GREAT DAY!!

BUT im really worried about starving... running out of money. i have 5 video projects for my producing class, 4 with a group.. so that's OBVIOUSLY going to be a lot of time outside of class, PLUS i have a whole other production class. and writing is going to be weekly assignments... and anthro has field trips!!! (it's about food!). so i basically can't get another job, i don't think. PLUS i NEED a tv because my writing class has watching-tv assignments! so ... i for sure can't get the comforter i wanted... at most i can get a shittier one even though i wanted it to be like.. my investment. but tvs cost like $200 at the LEAST because they only sell hi-def now.. i mean $250 is the cheapest at best buy... and i don't know where else i could go.

im pretty excited by all of this money pressure... even though im also worried.

i hope you had a good day too!
blythe