On the other hand... there's this...
Yeah... that's Katherine's TV... in slightly less than pristine condition... and I haven't told her yet...Wednesday, December 31, 2008
A Big Buuuh...
So... on the one hand there's this!!
On the other hand... there's this...
Yeah... that's Katherine's TV... in slightly less than pristine condition... and I haven't told her yet...
On the other hand... there's this...
Yeah... that's Katherine's TV... in slightly less than pristine condition... and I haven't told her yet...
Monday, December 29, 2008
My Spontaneous Fit
Last night WAS a really late night again. I stayed up until 7am, but I didn't even REALISE it was that late! But I have to say that I LOOOOOVE being up at night SOOOOOO MUCH!!! I theorize that MAYBE it's because the way I prefer to spend my time is a more balanced social vs. alone time schedule for me. Like... if you wake up at 3pm, then you only have to spend like... 7 hours with other people before you can legitimately turn in. BUUUT if you wake up at like 10am, you have to spend like... 12 hours with them. and if you wake up at 6am... then you probably STILL only have to spend 12 hours with them... but you're also RETARDED for liking 6am better on the waking up end instead of the STAYING up end. Lame. Anyway... that's probably not it at all... but it's a theory.
Today was mostly reading, playing guitar hero, and chilling with Claire and Sarah. I DID burn my Beatles CDs which was awesome. AND I'm doing my laundry right now! AND my mom and I ordered like... 8 books on amazon.com. It's true that it's WAY cheaper to do it that way. I saved like... $100 and now I wonder why I haven't been doing that the whole time. Things online just ARE cheaper!! My bus tickets were $22 less when I bought them online. Renting movies is cheaper with netflix. Newspapers are cheaper (/free). Books are cheaper. So there ya go.
Part B of the books story is that when I was ordering them I was like "man, these are never going to get to my apartment on time. I guess you don't use your books on the first day though (/I almost never use my books before like... finals)." And THEN I realised that school isn't starting for another 2 weeks!! I just keep forgeting because I'm going back to Boston, resting, and then starting PART 2 of my break!!!
Anyway, I did NOT buy my tickets to Boston online this time!! That's because today I woke up at 3pm as I said, and I had already put the books that were cheaper on amazon.com in my mom's cart. BUT when I woke up, she decided to go to the gym so I read for a while. When she came back I told her about the books, and she had a really hard time changing the shipping address because she insisted it was easier to place the order and THEN change the shipping address... which obviously doesn't make sense... but since she's paying I didn't feel that I could help her. After like a half hour, she got really upset and said they're going to be shipped to here. I told her that she should probably just cancel the order and we'll start again. SOOOO I had to go back online and pick out all the books again (which wasn't a big deal because I wrote all the books down on paper... it took like 5 minutes). Then my mom came BACK on and took like ... another half hour doing it the right way. After that, though, she was too frustrated to do the books from the BU Book Store, and she went to make dinner.
(added later: I particularly awkwardly switched tenses in my writing here... but I don't feel like going back and changing it... so just know that I know...)
Then I go upstairs to play guitar hero with my brother for like and hour. Then he gets tired and my sister replaces him. Claire texts me to go get dinner with her, but I tell her that I should probably spend my last dinner with the family and that I'd hang out with her later.
Ok, this is where my day gets RETARDED!! You can judge me all you want because I'm judging myself... but know that at no point did I think I was doing the right thing.
So we're playing guitar hero and my brother comes up and tells us to go get dinner when we finish the song, which was great since I was starving (as waking up at 3 pm does to me every day!!)!! So we're finishing the song and then Ernie gets pissed and yells at us to get downstairs... obviously my brother was giving us the end of the song and not the family. Ok... so I don't know what the issue was... but I'm obviously not used to people yelling at me or around me at all, so I instantly start bawling. Which is RETARDED since he obviously wasn't really THAT upset or even specifically upset with me. So I get downstairs, and I'm trying to cover up my tears because I know I'm being stupid. But Meredith asks me if I'm okay, and I couldn't take it so I go to the bathroom and start bawling. And I'm trying to think of things that will make me calm down so I can go back into the room... but my eyes are still red and reflecting off the light in the way that someone KNOWS you've been crying. And I knew it would be sooo awkward if everyone knew I was crying but no one knew why.
It ended up being TOO long and I heard everyone sit down and I decided I'd rather just not eat. Like... I could not control myself at ALL and kept bursting into tears. So I get into my room and I'm so upset because now I'm starving and stupid and I can't make myself stop. I finally start reading and like... 15 minutes into the meal, and I'd started to calm down, my mom calls me to tell me it's dinner time, which makes me start all over again because then I feel even STUPIDER realising that Ernie probably didn't even know that he WAS directing his yelling to me!! I called out to my mom that I was going to eat with Claire, and I knew she would be upset that I didn't eat with them on my last night. The whole thing was ridiculous.
So then I was planning on hanging out with Claire at 8pm, but she called me at 7:30ish and asked if I wanted her and Sarah to pick me up. I figured I was fine, and my face wasn't really red anymore, so I agreed. But after I hung up, I realized that we still didn't buy all of my books, I still hadn't looked up anything about my ticket or taking the subway in the morning, which I wanted to do REALLY early, AND I didn't even have enough money to take the bus... that being the biggest issue!!
So I go up to my mom, who is taking apart the roast chicken so that she can put it in tupperware for left overs, and I ask her if I'm still taking the bus in the morning. She says "yes." And I'm starving and I'm sad that she's probably not happy that I missed the meal and I'm still mad about the yelling and I'm nervous about the bus and the books and then Claire calls because they're at the door... and I start crying AGAIN!!! But there wasn't anything I could do about it. And my mom saw and gave me a weird look and I left and tried to be cool.
Luckily, Claire and Sarah are good about leaving you alone when you don't want to talk about things, and I was really embarrassed... because really... that whole story was SO STUPID!! Even at the TIME I knew I was being stupid. I felt way better like... 10 minutes into being with them. PLUS we looked at Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's coffee table book that Claire bought, which was REALLY awesome! I LOVE them!! And we wrote our own Proust/Mary-Kate/Ashley questionaire, which I'll probably put in here after Claire sends it to me.
Also, I called my mom and she's going to bring me to the bus station around noon and pay for it. I WOULD just stay here for another day like I intended but I already told Katherine that I would come back.
After I left, Sarah took me to Superfresh because I was so hungry. I got spicy crab sushi and TWO fresh artichokes, which I just ate. Now I'm STUFFED!!!
It's so weird that I don't hear about other people having these physical ramifications when they're at home. I can't imagine that my home is that much worse than anyone elses. I would argue that it's pretty fine. And I don't think I love school like... infinitely more than other people... although I do like school a lot. I feel stupid that I keep having these fits... but I'm glad that I KNOW they won't happen when I get back. AND I know that I'll NEVER be tempted to stay at home.
Anyway, look forward to my usual positive self again tomorrow/the next day!!
Today was mostly reading, playing guitar hero, and chilling with Claire and Sarah. I DID burn my Beatles CDs which was awesome. AND I'm doing my laundry right now! AND my mom and I ordered like... 8 books on amazon.com. It's true that it's WAY cheaper to do it that way. I saved like... $100 and now I wonder why I haven't been doing that the whole time. Things online just ARE cheaper!! My bus tickets were $22 less when I bought them online. Renting movies is cheaper with netflix. Newspapers are cheaper (/free). Books are cheaper. So there ya go.
Part B of the books story is that when I was ordering them I was like "man, these are never going to get to my apartment on time. I guess you don't use your books on the first day though (/I almost never use my books before like... finals)." And THEN I realised that school isn't starting for another 2 weeks!! I just keep forgeting because I'm going back to Boston, resting, and then starting PART 2 of my break!!!
Anyway, I did NOT buy my tickets to Boston online this time!! That's because today I woke up at 3pm as I said, and I had already put the books that were cheaper on amazon.com in my mom's cart. BUT when I woke up, she decided to go to the gym so I read for a while. When she came back I told her about the books, and she had a really hard time changing the shipping address because she insisted it was easier to place the order and THEN change the shipping address... which obviously doesn't make sense... but since she's paying I didn't feel that I could help her. After like a half hour, she got really upset and said they're going to be shipped to here. I told her that she should probably just cancel the order and we'll start again. SOOOO I had to go back online and pick out all the books again (which wasn't a big deal because I wrote all the books down on paper... it took like 5 minutes). Then my mom came BACK on and took like ... another half hour doing it the right way. After that, though, she was too frustrated to do the books from the BU Book Store, and she went to make dinner.
(added later: I particularly awkwardly switched tenses in my writing here... but I don't feel like going back and changing it... so just know that I know...)
Then I go upstairs to play guitar hero with my brother for like and hour. Then he gets tired and my sister replaces him. Claire texts me to go get dinner with her, but I tell her that I should probably spend my last dinner with the family and that I'd hang out with her later.
Ok, this is where my day gets RETARDED!! You can judge me all you want because I'm judging myself... but know that at no point did I think I was doing the right thing.
So we're playing guitar hero and my brother comes up and tells us to go get dinner when we finish the song, which was great since I was starving (as waking up at 3 pm does to me every day!!)!! So we're finishing the song and then Ernie gets pissed and yells at us to get downstairs... obviously my brother was giving us the end of the song and not the family. Ok... so I don't know what the issue was... but I'm obviously not used to people yelling at me or around me at all, so I instantly start bawling. Which is RETARDED since he obviously wasn't really THAT upset or even specifically upset with me. So I get downstairs, and I'm trying to cover up my tears because I know I'm being stupid. But Meredith asks me if I'm okay, and I couldn't take it so I go to the bathroom and start bawling. And I'm trying to think of things that will make me calm down so I can go back into the room... but my eyes are still red and reflecting off the light in the way that someone KNOWS you've been crying. And I knew it would be sooo awkward if everyone knew I was crying but no one knew why.
It ended up being TOO long and I heard everyone sit down and I decided I'd rather just not eat. Like... I could not control myself at ALL and kept bursting into tears. So I get into my room and I'm so upset because now I'm starving and stupid and I can't make myself stop. I finally start reading and like... 15 minutes into the meal, and I'd started to calm down, my mom calls me to tell me it's dinner time, which makes me start all over again because then I feel even STUPIDER realising that Ernie probably didn't even know that he WAS directing his yelling to me!! I called out to my mom that I was going to eat with Claire, and I knew she would be upset that I didn't eat with them on my last night. The whole thing was ridiculous.
So then I was planning on hanging out with Claire at 8pm, but she called me at 7:30ish and asked if I wanted her and Sarah to pick me up. I figured I was fine, and my face wasn't really red anymore, so I agreed. But after I hung up, I realized that we still didn't buy all of my books, I still hadn't looked up anything about my ticket or taking the subway in the morning, which I wanted to do REALLY early, AND I didn't even have enough money to take the bus... that being the biggest issue!!
So I go up to my mom, who is taking apart the roast chicken so that she can put it in tupperware for left overs, and I ask her if I'm still taking the bus in the morning. She says "yes." And I'm starving and I'm sad that she's probably not happy that I missed the meal and I'm still mad about the yelling and I'm nervous about the bus and the books and then Claire calls because they're at the door... and I start crying AGAIN!!! But there wasn't anything I could do about it. And my mom saw and gave me a weird look and I left and tried to be cool.
Luckily, Claire and Sarah are good about leaving you alone when you don't want to talk about things, and I was really embarrassed... because really... that whole story was SO STUPID!! Even at the TIME I knew I was being stupid. I felt way better like... 10 minutes into being with them. PLUS we looked at Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's coffee table book that Claire bought, which was REALLY awesome! I LOVE them!! And we wrote our own Proust/Mary-Kate/Ashley questionaire, which I'll probably put in here after Claire sends it to me.
Also, I called my mom and she's going to bring me to the bus station around noon and pay for it. I WOULD just stay here for another day like I intended but I already told Katherine that I would come back.
After I left, Sarah took me to Superfresh because I was so hungry. I got spicy crab sushi and TWO fresh artichokes, which I just ate. Now I'm STUFFED!!!
It's so weird that I don't hear about other people having these physical ramifications when they're at home. I can't imagine that my home is that much worse than anyone elses. I would argue that it's pretty fine. And I don't think I love school like... infinitely more than other people... although I do like school a lot. I feel stupid that I keep having these fits... but I'm glad that I KNOW they won't happen when I get back. AND I know that I'll NEVER be tempted to stay at home.
Anyway, look forward to my usual positive self again tomorrow/the next day!!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Ben Button, Boredom Sleep, and Leaving Home
So two nights ago, I AGAIN couldn't handle the Harry Potter (end of the third book!! who COULD handle it?), and ended up staying up until 8:30am! Ernie woke before I went to bed.
My mom ended up waking me up at 1pm to go look at computers, and I woke up fine. No issue. Although we didn't end up getting a computer because... I was too nervous about the moneys... /didn't have any. THEN we went to the Edgemont theater and saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button! I thought it was excellent!! Although I would change a few things:
1) It was on the premise Brad Pitt's diary that Cate Blanchett was having her daughter read before she dies. I think that was lame. I would rather just have like... a regular narrator because they kept going back to Cate and they didn't even make a master point about it from there perspective. In my mind, the directer saw that it didn't help the movie, but since the daughter is like... a semi-name actress, they probs didn't want to cut the part altogether.
2) There was a nice little tale that old Cate told before the Benjamin story that wasn't put in very well. It was like... pretty awkwardly placed.
Other than that, I thought the movie was great. Brad Pitt was very good, Cate Blanchett ALWAYS is, and the supporting characters, especially the mom, I thought were great! ALSO, the makeup situation was unbeLIEVABLE! like... the way they made them go from young to old and back was incredible. There is this part where Brad Pitt is in front of the mirror looking at his old man body and... it was FLAWLESS!! And they made him even younger than he is, which seems even HARDER to me. You could tell they wanted consistency soooo badly that they even doubed this like... 8 year olds voice to sound more like Cate... which was actually a LIIIIITTLE distracting, but I appreciated the effort. I feel like that's one of the worst parts about movies with multiple ages is that they aren't consistant enough and you don't believe it. Like... the old man in the notebook is NOT Ryan Gosling. That pisses me off! But they also made him get younger at a GREAT pace... although the movie was SOOOOO LONG!! It was like 3 hours, and that usually upsets me unless it's like... Titanic. But I'll forgive this one.
Anyway, I was starving when I got home around 6pm and I ASSUMED we were going to have dinner, so I went in my room and fell asleep. I woke up at 12:30am STARVING, stayed up until 4am-ish, woke again at 10:30am this morning, and boredom slept until 3pm!!! That's RIGHT! BOREDOM SLEPT! I only do that at home. Which brings me to the next topic...
I'm probably going go to Boston on Tuesday instead of Wednesday. I need to remember to:
1) email my work on "Slave for You" to myself
2) make all of my cds (I'm taking ALL of the Beatles from my parents that I don't already have because you can't buy that shit on iTunes-- take THAT Michael Jackson! You just lost like... $40!!-- it's actually over 100 songs! LOTS of work)
3) do my laundry!!!
4) make sure I have enough money to get back!
5) ask my mom to buy my books, she already said she would!
6) find a way to bring a SHIT TON of books back. I just want the entire Harry Potter series and all of the Meghan McCafferty books, even if they aren't as good anymore. If I can't, fine. But I'm going to try.
My mom ended up waking me up at 1pm to go look at computers, and I woke up fine. No issue. Although we didn't end up getting a computer because... I was too nervous about the moneys... /didn't have any. THEN we went to the Edgemont theater and saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button! I thought it was excellent!! Although I would change a few things:
1) It was on the premise Brad Pitt's diary that Cate Blanchett was having her daughter read before she dies. I think that was lame. I would rather just have like... a regular narrator because they kept going back to Cate and they didn't even make a master point about it from there perspective. In my mind, the directer saw that it didn't help the movie, but since the daughter is like... a semi-name actress, they probs didn't want to cut the part altogether.
2) There was a nice little tale that old Cate told before the Benjamin story that wasn't put in very well. It was like... pretty awkwardly placed.
Other than that, I thought the movie was great. Brad Pitt was very good, Cate Blanchett ALWAYS is, and the supporting characters, especially the mom, I thought were great! ALSO, the makeup situation was unbeLIEVABLE! like... the way they made them go from young to old and back was incredible. There is this part where Brad Pitt is in front of the mirror looking at his old man body and... it was FLAWLESS!! And they made him even younger than he is, which seems even HARDER to me. You could tell they wanted consistency soooo badly that they even doubed this like... 8 year olds voice to sound more like Cate... which was actually a LIIIIITTLE distracting, but I appreciated the effort. I feel like that's one of the worst parts about movies with multiple ages is that they aren't consistant enough and you don't believe it. Like... the old man in the notebook is NOT Ryan Gosling. That pisses me off! But they also made him get younger at a GREAT pace... although the movie was SOOOOO LONG!! It was like 3 hours, and that usually upsets me unless it's like... Titanic. But I'll forgive this one.
Anyway, I was starving when I got home around 6pm and I ASSUMED we were going to have dinner, so I went in my room and fell asleep. I woke up at 12:30am STARVING, stayed up until 4am-ish, woke again at 10:30am this morning, and boredom slept until 3pm!!! That's RIGHT! BOREDOM SLEPT! I only do that at home. Which brings me to the next topic...
I'm probably going go to Boston on Tuesday instead of Wednesday. I need to remember to:
1) email my work on "Slave for You" to myself
2) make all of my cds (I'm taking ALL of the Beatles from my parents that I don't already have because you can't buy that shit on iTunes-- take THAT Michael Jackson! You just lost like... $40!!-- it's actually over 100 songs! LOTS of work)
3) do my laundry!!!
4) make sure I have enough money to get back!
5) ask my mom to buy my books, she already said she would!
6) find a way to bring a SHIT TON of books back. I just want the entire Harry Potter series and all of the Meghan McCafferty books, even if they aren't as good anymore. If I can't, fine. But I'm going to try.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Survey... Because I Love it
Ok... so I think I deserve to do this because it's been SO LONG and in my old blog I would do them all the time!!! What's funny is that I just went through my old blog in 2005 when I used to do these a LOT and came across one like... every 3 entries... buuuuh. Anyway, here is one I picked out. (I'll put the answers from Oct. 2005 in parenthesis because I think they're fun)
1. What time is it in one hour? (do they mean "will it be"? because in one hour it will be 10:08 pm) It'll be exactly 5am in an hour.
2. Name as appears on your birth certificate? (Blythe Elizabeth Wolber) Obviously still applies
3. Nickname(s) (blydy, blythe-a-bell) Caroline, and I think I've noticed some other people, call me Blythe-bear a lot. Caroline REALLY does it though. I actually love it.
4. Do You Drive?: (should i or do i? haha no i don't.) yeah... still applies
5. Single or taken?: (single) still
6. Chinese zodiac: (dragon) still
7. Hair color: (light brown) I would say it's regular brown... but I'm pretty sure the color hasn't changed.
8. Eyelash color: (hmmm dark brown) I mean... dyed black from the eyeliner
9. Height at age 12: (i don't know... 4 ft +/- 2 feet) ha I would bet 5"
10. Shoe size : (BIG haha.. no but woulnd't it be cool if that meant anything for girls. i think im 10 or something tho) Yeah same.
11. Glasses, contacts or neither?: (neither) I do have glasses that I'm supposed to wear for an hour a day because otherwise my one bad eye will get lazy... but really I can see very well without them.
12. Braces? (never) still true
13. Wished Piercing/tattoos?: (kind of ... but i don't know where) ummmm not really
14. Birthplace: (st josephs hospital, syracuse ny) true
15. Current residence:(htown) Boston
16. Siblings name and age: (meredith-11, matt-7, indigo- 5) now they are 14, 10, 9 -- just remembered I forgot Indigo's birthday for the third year in a row!!!! I SUCK)
******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Gotten super wasted? (no) yes
18. Gotten so drunk you don't rememember? (no) yes... but no complete blackouts
19. Drank 5 liters of beer in 2 hours?: (no) I don't think so
20. Had an Irish carbomb: (no) still no
21. Skipped school by peer pressure?: (no) no but I skip because I don't feel like it occasionally
22. Bungee jumped?: (no) still true
23. Kissed someone not related to you 30+ years older than you on the cheek: (no) still no
24. Kissed someone of the same sex not related to you?: (on the cheek again? yes) still true
25. Made out with more than two people in one day: (no)
26. Hit your head somewhere and been knocked out?: (no)
27. TP'd someone's house? (no)
28. Won something of value?: (money value? i dont' think so) I won a pass to the tomb at college fest. I don't know... sometimes I win things
29. Asked a stranger out?: (no)
30. Been rejected by someone?: (no)
31. Been in love with someone who didn’t know it?: (no) well... I don't know
32. Been to over 5 funerals? : (no)
33. Used a lighter?: (yes)
34. Been on stage?: (yes)
****FAVORITE******
35. Pasta: (linguini... actually anything but regular pasta... im bored of that) Ok my new answer is Chicken tequila fettucine from California Pizza Kitchen!! I LOOOOVE that shit!
36. Ice cream flavor: (double fudge brownie) my new answer is chocolate with peanut butter
37. Store for clothes: (kohls) I mean... I don't really buy clothes. So mostly kohls or urban
38. School subject(s): (right now? all but sr proj) Ummm... television and anthropology
39. Breakfast cereal: (cheerios or golden grahams) I would add rice crispies to that
40. Number and why: (3 ... it is my birthday but im not sure thats why) Yeah... i don't really have a fave
41. Book and why: (second helpings) that, Harry Potter books, David Sedaris-- not in that order
42. Horror Movie: (the ring) still true although I'm still scared of Dark Corners
43. Candy: (toblerone) Have to say ferrero roche
44. Black soda: (cherry pepsi) cherry coke
45. Color: (red, indigo) funnily enough, I officially changed it to blue, specifically blue-green
46. Vacation spot(s) that you like: (colorado) still true, although on a radio show I told a lady that I would get a house in Seattle
47. Sport to watch on T.V.: (celebrity poker) still true
48. Sport to play: (softball... or frisbee) and wiffle ball
49. Fruit: (huh... ummm ... raspberries...) and pineapple and tomatoes
50. Sound: (tenors) i guess that's still true
51. Fast food restaraunt: (taco bell.. i can't help it... sometimes i just want refried beans in a wrap) I do still agree, but I like uburger better
52. Cartoon Character: (peter pan... or sebastian or flower or lumiere) and Wall-e
53. Holiday the first half of the year: (ew... i can't even think of any other than easter which is my arch nemasis holiday) agree... can we count Oscar day as a holiday?
54. Name for a boy: (darian, jesse) miraculously, still true!!
55. Name for a girl: (vada, avalon) still true with vada, I've changed avalon to scarlett but I might change again because now it's too much like scarlett johanson
******DO YOU PREFER******
56. Chocolate, strawberry or vanilla?: (chocolate) definitely still true
57. Boys or girls?: (boys) still true
58. Long relationships or one night stands: (long) yep
59. Dogs or cats or horses?: (horses to pull my stuff... dogs to be my bitch, cats for the attitude) haha I think I'll just go with dogs... but I bet I'll get a cat first (probably one of my 4 existing ones)
60. comedies or scary movies: (comedies) def
61. Silver or gold?: (both) agree
62 Croutons or bacon bits?: (croutons) def
******THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
63. Potato: (hybrid pot with tomotoes) potatopus
64. Tomato: (mom yelling that ive eaten them all) truth. I could eat a tomato right now!
65. School: (partay if you've done your work... which often i have not) glorious!!!
66. Grass: (smelly)frozen
67. Cow: (my wedding when instead of a feast i bring in a live cow and tell people to dig in) wtf!!! I don't know why I said that!! ummm stupid and unfortunately bred to be that way
68. Canada: (oh canada) michael cera
69. Mouse: (tactic to meet girls in 100 girls) tried to steal my rolos
70. Hand: (plaster) thing from the addams family--I was discussing that movie with my mom
******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******
71. Watched a movie? (heck yes.. 2 EASILY) nope, upstairs the tv is being used for wii and downstairs there is no vcr. but tomorrow we're having superhero night, I hear.
72. Talked on the phone?: (yes) true, I talked to Katherine
73. Cried?: (hmmm... close but i would go with no... definately in the past 72 hours tho) yes, I've been reading a lot of Harry Potter and I've gotten to be unbearable sensitive
74. Threw up?: (ew no!) no but I did a LOT a few days ago!!!!!
75. Drank a glass of water?: (more than one (which isn't actually the norm but soda is making me ill)) hahaha! yes I have
76. Gone to the bathroom?: (obviously) still true
77. Read a book or magazine? (no) I've read 1.5 books AND a magazine.
78. Watched tv?: (friends on dvd? yes... anything ON TV... no) hmmmm I was on the computer while my sister watched Full House, but I haven't sat and watched tv, no
79. Looked in the mirror?: (hahahahahaha! looked, sang to... ) yes
80. Taken a shower?: (yes) still true... although not in the past 24 hours
81. Taken a picture?: (no) yes. I took a picture of the turtles
82. Listened to music?: (yes) true
83. Hugged or kissed someone?: (yes) true
84. Done your hw?: (no... seriously i haven't) winter break, don't have any
85. Told someone you loved them?: (yes... probably more than 25 times total) yes... my sister asks me like... hourly if I love her... I mostly say no but I'm sure I said yes at some point.
***DO YOU BELIEVE IN....******
86. Heaven?: (no) still true
87. A one true love?: (no) still true
88. Aliens?: (not the intelligent kind (refering to beings not on this earth) but possibly like... the equivalent of plant life) yes I definitely believe in aliens... but they probably won't get to be here. but statistically there definitely are basically
89. Fun for the entire family?: (MONOPOLY!! HECK YES!!!) or trivial pursuit
90. Freedom of speech?: (yes) definitely!!
91. Love?: (yes) still true
92. Magic?: (no but i do a lot of things and follow a lot of my own superstitions that revolve around me believing in magic) hahaha still kind of true
*******SOME RANDOM STUFF******
93. Last movie you saw in theatres?:(march of the penguins) Milk, probably
94. Are you listening to music right now?: (no) true
95. What color shirt are you wearing?: (westgate blue) gray
96. Do you like your middle name?: (ummm... it doens't really affect me much) true but I like having so many "th"s
97. What is the best thing since sliced bread: (sliced onions!) internet!
98. What color is your backpack?: (my NEW backpack?????!!! RED!) haha same backpack. although now I have a purple Blythe bag and a black Vogue espana bag
99. Is there somebody you want to perfrm sexual acts on?: (wow! heck yes!) still true
1. What time is it in one hour? (do they mean "will it be"? because in one hour it will be 10:08 pm) It'll be exactly 5am in an hour.
2. Name as appears on your birth certificate? (Blythe Elizabeth Wolber) Obviously still applies
3. Nickname(s) (blydy, blythe-a-bell) Caroline, and I think I've noticed some other people, call me Blythe-bear a lot. Caroline REALLY does it though. I actually love it.
4. Do You Drive?: (should i or do i? haha no i don't.) yeah... still applies
5. Single or taken?: (single) still
6. Chinese zodiac: (dragon) still
7. Hair color: (light brown) I would say it's regular brown... but I'm pretty sure the color hasn't changed.
8. Eyelash color: (hmmm dark brown) I mean... dyed black from the eyeliner
9. Height at age 12: (i don't know... 4 ft +/- 2 feet) ha I would bet 5"
10. Shoe size : (BIG haha.. no but woulnd't it be cool if that meant anything for girls. i think im 10 or something tho) Yeah same.
11. Glasses, contacts or neither?: (neither) I do have glasses that I'm supposed to wear for an hour a day because otherwise my one bad eye will get lazy... but really I can see very well without them.
12. Braces? (never) still true
13. Wished Piercing/tattoos?: (kind of ... but i don't know where) ummmm not really
14. Birthplace: (st josephs hospital, syracuse ny) true
15. Current residence:(htown) Boston
16. Siblings name and age: (meredith-11, matt-7, indigo- 5) now they are 14, 10, 9 -- just remembered I forgot Indigo's birthday for the third year in a row!!!! I SUCK)
******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Gotten super wasted? (no) yes
18. Gotten so drunk you don't rememember? (no) yes... but no complete blackouts
19. Drank 5 liters of beer in 2 hours?: (no) I don't think so
20. Had an Irish carbomb: (no) still no
21. Skipped school by peer pressure?: (no) no but I skip because I don't feel like it occasionally
22. Bungee jumped?: (no) still true
23. Kissed someone not related to you 30+ years older than you on the cheek: (no) still no
24. Kissed someone of the same sex not related to you?: (on the cheek again? yes) still true
25. Made out with more than two people in one day: (no)
26. Hit your head somewhere and been knocked out?: (no)
27. TP'd someone's house? (no)
28. Won something of value?: (money value? i dont' think so) I won a pass to the tomb at college fest. I don't know... sometimes I win things
29. Asked a stranger out?: (no)
30. Been rejected by someone?: (no)
31. Been in love with someone who didn’t know it?: (no) well... I don't know
32. Been to over 5 funerals? : (no)
33. Used a lighter?: (yes)
34. Been on stage?: (yes)
****FAVORITE******
35. Pasta: (linguini... actually anything but regular pasta... im bored of that) Ok my new answer is Chicken tequila fettucine from California Pizza Kitchen!! I LOOOOVE that shit!
36. Ice cream flavor: (double fudge brownie) my new answer is chocolate with peanut butter
37. Store for clothes: (kohls) I mean... I don't really buy clothes. So mostly kohls or urban
38. School subject(s): (right now? all but sr proj) Ummm... television and anthropology
39. Breakfast cereal: (cheerios or golden grahams) I would add rice crispies to that
40. Number and why: (3 ... it is my birthday but im not sure thats why) Yeah... i don't really have a fave
41. Book and why: (second helpings) that, Harry Potter books, David Sedaris-- not in that order
42. Horror Movie: (the ring) still true although I'm still scared of Dark Corners
43. Candy: (toblerone) Have to say ferrero roche
44. Black soda: (cherry pepsi) cherry coke
45. Color: (red, indigo) funnily enough, I officially changed it to blue, specifically blue-green
46. Vacation spot(s) that you like: (colorado) still true, although on a radio show I told a lady that I would get a house in Seattle
47. Sport to watch on T.V.: (celebrity poker) still true
48. Sport to play: (softball... or frisbee) and wiffle ball
49. Fruit: (huh... ummm ... raspberries...) and pineapple and tomatoes
50. Sound: (tenors) i guess that's still true
51. Fast food restaraunt: (taco bell.. i can't help it... sometimes i just want refried beans in a wrap) I do still agree, but I like uburger better
52. Cartoon Character: (peter pan... or sebastian or flower or lumiere) and Wall-e
53. Holiday the first half of the year: (ew... i can't even think of any other than easter which is my arch nemasis holiday) agree... can we count Oscar day as a holiday?
54. Name for a boy: (darian, jesse) miraculously, still true!!
55. Name for a girl: (vada, avalon) still true with vada, I've changed avalon to scarlett but I might change again because now it's too much like scarlett johanson
******DO YOU PREFER******
56. Chocolate, strawberry or vanilla?: (chocolate) definitely still true
57. Boys or girls?: (boys) still true
58. Long relationships or one night stands: (long) yep
59. Dogs or cats or horses?: (horses to pull my stuff... dogs to be my bitch, cats for the attitude) haha I think I'll just go with dogs... but I bet I'll get a cat first (probably one of my 4 existing ones)
60. comedies or scary movies: (comedies) def
61. Silver or gold?: (both) agree
62 Croutons or bacon bits?: (croutons) def
******THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
63. Potato: (hybrid pot with tomotoes) potatopus
64. Tomato: (mom yelling that ive eaten them all) truth. I could eat a tomato right now!
65. School: (partay if you've done your work... which often i have not) glorious!!!
66. Grass: (smelly)frozen
67. Cow: (my wedding when instead of a feast i bring in a live cow and tell people to dig in) wtf!!! I don't know why I said that!! ummm stupid and unfortunately bred to be that way
68. Canada: (oh canada) michael cera
69. Mouse: (tactic to meet girls in 100 girls) tried to steal my rolos
70. Hand: (plaster) thing from the addams family--I was discussing that movie with my mom
******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******
71. Watched a movie? (heck yes.. 2 EASILY) nope, upstairs the tv is being used for wii and downstairs there is no vcr. but tomorrow we're having superhero night, I hear.
72. Talked on the phone?: (yes) true, I talked to Katherine
73. Cried?: (hmmm... close but i would go with no... definately in the past 72 hours tho) yes, I've been reading a lot of Harry Potter and I've gotten to be unbearable sensitive
74. Threw up?: (ew no!) no but I did a LOT a few days ago!!!!!
75. Drank a glass of water?: (more than one (which isn't actually the norm but soda is making me ill)) hahaha! yes I have
76. Gone to the bathroom?: (obviously) still true
77. Read a book or magazine? (no) I've read 1.5 books AND a magazine.
78. Watched tv?: (friends on dvd? yes... anything ON TV... no) hmmmm I was on the computer while my sister watched Full House, but I haven't sat and watched tv, no
79. Looked in the mirror?: (hahahahahaha! looked, sang to... ) yes
80. Taken a shower?: (yes) still true... although not in the past 24 hours
81. Taken a picture?: (no) yes. I took a picture of the turtles
82. Listened to music?: (yes) true
83. Hugged or kissed someone?: (yes) true
84. Done your hw?: (no... seriously i haven't) winter break, don't have any
85. Told someone you loved them?: (yes... probably more than 25 times total) yes... my sister asks me like... hourly if I love her... I mostly say no but I'm sure I said yes at some point.
***DO YOU BELIEVE IN....******
86. Heaven?: (no) still true
87. A one true love?: (no) still true
88. Aliens?: (not the intelligent kind (refering to beings not on this earth) but possibly like... the equivalent of plant life) yes I definitely believe in aliens... but they probably won't get to be here. but statistically there definitely are basically
89. Fun for the entire family?: (MONOPOLY!! HECK YES!!!) or trivial pursuit
90. Freedom of speech?: (yes) definitely!!
91. Love?: (yes) still true
92. Magic?: (no but i do a lot of things and follow a lot of my own superstitions that revolve around me believing in magic) hahaha still kind of true
*******SOME RANDOM STUFF******
93. Last movie you saw in theatres?:(march of the penguins) Milk, probably
94. Are you listening to music right now?: (no) true
95. What color shirt are you wearing?: (westgate blue) gray
96. Do you like your middle name?: (ummm... it doens't really affect me much) true but I like having so many "th"s
97. What is the best thing since sliced bread: (sliced onions!) internet!
98. What color is your backpack?: (my NEW backpack?????!!! RED!) haha same backpack. although now I have a purple Blythe bag and a black Vogue espana bag
99. Is there somebody you want to perfrm sexual acts on?: (wow! heck yes!) still true
A Day in 13 Lines
I woke up a little after 3pm. Yeah... rough.
I ate keilbasa and artichoke dip.
I checked my facebook.
I played guitar hero with my sister.
I ate roast beef in gravy.
I played trivial pursuit with Ernie, Matt, and Meredith (and won!).
I walked, with my sister, to rite aid to get a coke and Entertainment Weekly.
I read Entertainment Weekly.
I played guitar hero with my sister again.
I organized my mom's pictures on the computer.
I talked to my mom when she got back from work.
I did this.
That was my whole day.
(If I didn't say it, I didn't do it, including getting dressed or brushing my hair.)
Added later: I just have to say that the trivial pursuit was fun because it has different levels of difficulty so that a card has 6 questions and the first two are easy (relatively... they're still a little hard), and second 2 are medium, and the third two are hard... and you get the question based on the roll. The categories are entertainment, art and literature, sports and leisure, history, geography, and science and nature. Obviously you have to get an answer right in each category, and then you have to get back to the middle and roll. Then the rest of the team gets to pick a category and you have to answer the question based on the number you rolled. So the entire game I was behind and I kept landing on entertainment with a 5 or 6 and I couldn't get them, which was really frustrating to me because... entertainment should be my best subject. So near the end, Matt and Ernie had 5/6 and were looking for an entertainment question and Mere and I had 3/6. Then Ernie finally gets into the middle and rolls the die and Matt wanted to ask him a history question... but history was like... Ernie's best subject (I mean... he's almost 50 so he knows a lot of shit). So Mere and I vetoed and said we would ask art and literature. He ends up not getting the answer for like 4 rolls. Meanwhile, I picked up and finally got all of the pieces before Matt gets his desired entertainment one. So I get to the middle and everyone gets to choose my category-- I had rolled a 6 so it was going to be hard. Mere says they should ask me a sports question, which is wise. But since I kept complaining about the entertainment ones, Matt decided to give me one of them. The question was like "What 1999 movie had the tagline 'The future isn't user-friendly'?" The Matrix. (By the way... that is WAY easier than the other questions. I have no idea why it was a 6). So I won even though Ernie probably WOULD have won if my brother wasn't retarded! Anyway... it was fun for me. I LOVE BOARD GAMES!! I hope my future family has family game night... and I hope we're REALLY intense and when people come to visit they get REALLY nervous because we're so fierce. This is my dream.
By the way... obviously I can't tell about a day in 13 lines. I talk way too much for that shit.
I ate keilbasa and artichoke dip.
I checked my facebook.
I played guitar hero with my sister.
I ate roast beef in gravy.
I played trivial pursuit with Ernie, Matt, and Meredith (and won!).
I walked, with my sister, to rite aid to get a coke and Entertainment Weekly.
I read Entertainment Weekly.
I played guitar hero with my sister again.
I organized my mom's pictures on the computer.
I talked to my mom when she got back from work.
I did this.
That was my whole day.
(If I didn't say it, I didn't do it, including getting dressed or brushing my hair.)
Added later: I just have to say that the trivial pursuit was fun because it has different levels of difficulty so that a card has 6 questions and the first two are easy (relatively... they're still a little hard), and second 2 are medium, and the third two are hard... and you get the question based on the roll. The categories are entertainment, art and literature, sports and leisure, history, geography, and science and nature. Obviously you have to get an answer right in each category, and then you have to get back to the middle and roll. Then the rest of the team gets to pick a category and you have to answer the question based on the number you rolled. So the entire game I was behind and I kept landing on entertainment with a 5 or 6 and I couldn't get them, which was really frustrating to me because... entertainment should be my best subject. So near the end, Matt and Ernie had 5/6 and were looking for an entertainment question and Mere and I had 3/6. Then Ernie finally gets into the middle and rolls the die and Matt wanted to ask him a history question... but history was like... Ernie's best subject (I mean... he's almost 50 so he knows a lot of shit). So Mere and I vetoed and said we would ask art and literature. He ends up not getting the answer for like 4 rolls. Meanwhile, I picked up and finally got all of the pieces before Matt gets his desired entertainment one. So I get to the middle and everyone gets to choose my category-- I had rolled a 6 so it was going to be hard. Mere says they should ask me a sports question, which is wise. But since I kept complaining about the entertainment ones, Matt decided to give me one of them. The question was like "What 1999 movie had the tagline 'The future isn't user-friendly'?" The Matrix. (By the way... that is WAY easier than the other questions. I have no idea why it was a 6). So I won even though Ernie probably WOULD have won if my brother wasn't retarded! Anyway... it was fun for me. I LOVE BOARD GAMES!! I hope my future family has family game night... and I hope we're REALLY intense and when people come to visit they get REALLY nervous because we're so fierce. This is my dream.
By the way... obviously I can't tell about a day in 13 lines. I talk way too much for that shit.
Some Clarifying Pictures
Here are the turtles in the clear water post-cleansing.
Here is the disgusting water. I took this picture the day before.
Here is the extremely conservatively decorated tree.
Friday, December 26, 2008
YAY CHRISTMAS!!
So Christmas was great! (not sarcastic)
First of all, while the tree was the most conservatively decorated tree I have EVER seen (we didn't feel like putting up decorations)... it was nice having a tree. In fact, I really liked not putting up all the ornaments.
Then I found my nice pants that I left here so I was able to dress fairly well for my aunt's Christmas eve party. The party was torturous, especially without my mom, but it was survivable. Plus the food was delicious... including the hors d'oeuvres-- I ate like... an entire village of shrimp!
Then I stayed up reading, as I've been doing every night and when my mom came home I told her that I'd been lusting over these jars of artichoke hearts that Ernie left on the counter. She told me that he wasn't using them because he already used cans of artichokes for his dip. Me-rry Christmas!! I ate a jar.
I unfortunately stayed up until 5am (because I can roll in no other direction, apparently), but my brother woke up but at 10am on Christmas. My brother and sister have always been EXCELLENT about not waking up too early on Christmas! Even when they were young they would wake up at like... 9. When I was young, my parents told me I couldn't wake them up before 7am or something... and I would wake up at 5am and just sit in my living room, staring.
Then, as it turns out, my MOM got the most extravagent gifts... as opposed to Matt and Meredith. My brother and sister got:
-The Host (Mere)
-Ripley's Believe it or Not and Guiness Book of World Records books (Matt)
-Mama Mia (Mere)
-The Dark Knight and Hancock (Matt)
-two t-shirts (Matt)
-two pairs of neat socks (Mere)
-an iPod nano a piece
-trivial pursuit (both)
-Guitar Hero, world tour (drums and mic and stuff) (both)
I know I'm spoiled, but I think that is a reasonable amount of stuff... I don't think it's a disgusting amount of useless things. A few books, a few movies, and 2 extravagent gifts (one to share)... very nice.
I got a new phone a few days ago, and then my mom gave me a pair of socks and $50 in iTunes and $50 for the Regal... which is PERFECT! Also, we're going to look for a new computer tomorrow... so I'm the most spoiled, perhaps.
My mom got a tripod, which confused me a lot because... I couldn't see any need. Then she got some Chanel perfume, which she ALWAYS gets. Then she got an indoor planter thing that like... heats itself, so she can grow herbs in the basement... very interesting. Then she got like... a HUGE lighting set with like... 3 lights and umbrellas and stuff. She later explained that she was going to take a photography course.
Ernie got the same stuff he ALWAYS gets, which I think is HILARIOUS. He always gets a LOT of socks and underwear. Then my mom alternates between 2 pairs of jeans or 2 pairs of sweatpants (sweatpants this year) and there is ALWAYS the discussion of whether they are too big or not. And he ALWAYS asks for overalls, and she always gets him new ones that she says are very sturdy. This year they are demin, but I think last year they were made out of like... thick winter swishy-pant material. I have never seen him wear overalls in my life, btw. She also got him a portable digital photo album. He told me he was going to put my paintings on the album, and proceeded to tell me how good I've gotten at painting. I almost cried because he doesn't talk to me that much... so I had to leave. But it was very nice.
Anyway, then we ate doughnuts (I ate a bagel) that Matt and Ernie got at Dunkin' before they woke the rest of us up. Then we played a lot of World Tour and then we went to my uncle Joe's. It was slightly torture also, but again, quality food, including shrimp. Also, my mom was there. ALSO, my cousins (age 21 (Mary) and 18 (Grace)) and I, when sitting at the kids table (with 5th grader (Matt), 6th grader (Jerry), 7th grader (Julianne), 8th grader (Meredith), and freshman (Alex)) usually provoke them to talk about who they like. However, when we discussed how Jerry went to a boy/girl party and he replied that the party was pretty "suck-ish," Alex said "I know what you're implying." Mary and I exchanged panicked looks and the subject was quickly changed to school.
Anyway, we did gifts and desserts and left. Then, when we got home, I went in my brothers room to look at the turtles and one of the fish (the HUGE goldfish that were never eaten by the turtles and then grew to be like 6 inches long) was dead... and there was a vile smell. Then I look in the cloudy water and one of the turtles is SAVAGELY RIPPING APART ANOTHER ONE!! And the other two fish are no where to be seen. I had no idea what happened so I get Matt and we start trying to filter the tank. But I start to panick that something is wrong and the turtles are going to die so I tell Matt to get mom without letting Ernie know that there is a real problem. Mom doesn't come. So I get her. She finally comes up and tells me that it isn't a huge deal, and she's very upset because these kinds of things really piss her off. Whatever, long story short, she decided it IS an emergency and we clean the tank for the FIRST TIME. And it smells like DEAAATH!! And we find the other 2 goldfish which... how did they hide??? /they were very dead. Also, we killed the two suckerfish, which did upset me because they were trying to kill themselves. And my mom yelled at my brother a lot!! It was KIND OF fun... but very disgusting. I am not going to own turtles.
YAAAAAY CHRISTMAS!
First of all, while the tree was the most conservatively decorated tree I have EVER seen (we didn't feel like putting up decorations)... it was nice having a tree. In fact, I really liked not putting up all the ornaments.
Then I found my nice pants that I left here so I was able to dress fairly well for my aunt's Christmas eve party. The party was torturous, especially without my mom, but it was survivable. Plus the food was delicious... including the hors d'oeuvres-- I ate like... an entire village of shrimp!
Then I stayed up reading, as I've been doing every night and when my mom came home I told her that I'd been lusting over these jars of artichoke hearts that Ernie left on the counter. She told me that he wasn't using them because he already used cans of artichokes for his dip. Me-rry Christmas!! I ate a jar.
I unfortunately stayed up until 5am (because I can roll in no other direction, apparently), but my brother woke up but at 10am on Christmas. My brother and sister have always been EXCELLENT about not waking up too early on Christmas! Even when they were young they would wake up at like... 9. When I was young, my parents told me I couldn't wake them up before 7am or something... and I would wake up at 5am and just sit in my living room, staring.
Then, as it turns out, my MOM got the most extravagent gifts... as opposed to Matt and Meredith. My brother and sister got:
-The Host (Mere)
-Ripley's Believe it or Not and Guiness Book of World Records books (Matt)
-Mama Mia (Mere)
-The Dark Knight and Hancock (Matt)
-two t-shirts (Matt)
-two pairs of neat socks (Mere)
-an iPod nano a piece
-trivial pursuit (both)
-Guitar Hero, world tour (drums and mic and stuff) (both)
I know I'm spoiled, but I think that is a reasonable amount of stuff... I don't think it's a disgusting amount of useless things. A few books, a few movies, and 2 extravagent gifts (one to share)... very nice.
I got a new phone a few days ago, and then my mom gave me a pair of socks and $50 in iTunes and $50 for the Regal... which is PERFECT! Also, we're going to look for a new computer tomorrow... so I'm the most spoiled, perhaps.
My mom got a tripod, which confused me a lot because... I couldn't see any need. Then she got some Chanel perfume, which she ALWAYS gets. Then she got an indoor planter thing that like... heats itself, so she can grow herbs in the basement... very interesting. Then she got like... a HUGE lighting set with like... 3 lights and umbrellas and stuff. She later explained that she was going to take a photography course.
Ernie got the same stuff he ALWAYS gets, which I think is HILARIOUS. He always gets a LOT of socks and underwear. Then my mom alternates between 2 pairs of jeans or 2 pairs of sweatpants (sweatpants this year) and there is ALWAYS the discussion of whether they are too big or not. And he ALWAYS asks for overalls, and she always gets him new ones that she says are very sturdy. This year they are demin, but I think last year they were made out of like... thick winter swishy-pant material. I have never seen him wear overalls in my life, btw. She also got him a portable digital photo album. He told me he was going to put my paintings on the album, and proceeded to tell me how good I've gotten at painting. I almost cried because he doesn't talk to me that much... so I had to leave. But it was very nice.
Anyway, then we ate doughnuts (I ate a bagel) that Matt and Ernie got at Dunkin' before they woke the rest of us up. Then we played a lot of World Tour and then we went to my uncle Joe's. It was slightly torture also, but again, quality food, including shrimp. Also, my mom was there. ALSO, my cousins (age 21 (Mary) and 18 (Grace)) and I, when sitting at the kids table (with 5th grader (Matt), 6th grader (Jerry), 7th grader (Julianne), 8th grader (Meredith), and freshman (Alex)) usually provoke them to talk about who they like. However, when we discussed how Jerry went to a boy/girl party and he replied that the party was pretty "suck-ish," Alex said "I know what you're implying." Mary and I exchanged panicked looks and the subject was quickly changed to school.
Anyway, we did gifts and desserts and left. Then, when we got home, I went in my brothers room to look at the turtles and one of the fish (the HUGE goldfish that were never eaten by the turtles and then grew to be like 6 inches long) was dead... and there was a vile smell. Then I look in the cloudy water and one of the turtles is SAVAGELY RIPPING APART ANOTHER ONE!! And the other two fish are no where to be seen. I had no idea what happened so I get Matt and we start trying to filter the tank. But I start to panick that something is wrong and the turtles are going to die so I tell Matt to get mom without letting Ernie know that there is a real problem. Mom doesn't come. So I get her. She finally comes up and tells me that it isn't a huge deal, and she's very upset because these kinds of things really piss her off. Whatever, long story short, she decided it IS an emergency and we clean the tank for the FIRST TIME. And it smells like DEAAATH!! And we find the other 2 goldfish which... how did they hide??? /they were very dead. Also, we killed the two suckerfish, which did upset me because they were trying to kill themselves. And my mom yelled at my brother a lot!! It was KIND OF fun... but very disgusting. I am not going to own turtles.
YAAAAAY CHRISTMAS!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
YAY FOR PARTIES AND CAFFEINE!!
Today I'm FOR REAL way happier and I'll tell you why!!!
1) I actually hung out with my mom today.
2)PLUS I got two new sweaters which is REALLY lucky because then I have something to wear for the Christmas Eve and Christmas AND the Christmas party that we had tonight. But if I only got ONE sweater, it would have been embarrassing because I would have to wear the same thing twice. Also my mom paid which is lucky... and even better was that they were only $16 each... so I didn't have to feel guilty.
3) Claire's party was great!! I love my friends soooo much!! AND they loved my costume which was that I was a British person on Christmas and I wore a sweater and a paper crown like the British do from their crackers! And we had a nice chat! And we played a fun game!! AND I got to meet Natalya's boyfriend, Mike, who was very cool.
4) Even though I found out yesterday, I got a B in producing... so this DOES happen to be my highest gpa semester so far (3 A-s and a B). WHICH is funny because... well I was perhaps my most scandalous this semester for reasons I shant divulge on this blog. If you're reading this... you probs know. Although... I don't think I've ever really done badly so... it's only a LITTLE higher... but still... it's funny.
ALSO, I finished Harry Potter 2 last night at 5am. I couldn't handle it. I woke up at 2:30pm today. Buuuuh...
ALSO, I drank 3 sodas today for the first time since Thanksgiving. I'm going to stop again after Christmas... but whatever.
PARTIES AND CAFFEINE ARE GOOD FOR MY SOUL!!!!
Just sayin'... ain't no coincidence, I reckon!
1) I actually hung out with my mom today.
2)PLUS I got two new sweaters which is REALLY lucky because then I have something to wear for the Christmas Eve and Christmas AND the Christmas party that we had tonight. But if I only got ONE sweater, it would have been embarrassing because I would have to wear the same thing twice. Also my mom paid which is lucky... and even better was that they were only $16 each... so I didn't have to feel guilty.
3) Claire's party was great!! I love my friends soooo much!! AND they loved my costume which was that I was a British person on Christmas and I wore a sweater and a paper crown like the British do from their crackers! And we had a nice chat! And we played a fun game!! AND I got to meet Natalya's boyfriend, Mike, who was very cool.
4) Even though I found out yesterday, I got a B in producing... so this DOES happen to be my highest gpa semester so far (3 A-s and a B). WHICH is funny because... well I was perhaps my most scandalous this semester for reasons I shant divulge on this blog. If you're reading this... you probs know. Although... I don't think I've ever really done badly so... it's only a LITTLE higher... but still... it's funny.
ALSO, I finished Harry Potter 2 last night at 5am. I couldn't handle it. I woke up at 2:30pm today. Buuuuh...
ALSO, I drank 3 sodas today for the first time since Thanksgiving. I'm going to stop again after Christmas... but whatever.
PARTIES AND CAFFEINE ARE GOOD FOR MY SOUL!!!!
Just sayin'... ain't no coincidence, I reckon!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Fuck Christmas (sorry... but that's really what this is about)
Today I woke up at 3pm and did literally nothing. The only noteworthy event was hanging out with Claire and Sarah (who, as it turns out, I haven't seen in a bajillion years). Also, this hangout took place at Applebees... which I bravely returned to.
BUT TOMORROW I'M GOING TO BE BETTER.
a) Hopefully I'll be less negative as I am sick of myself. Especially since today I clearly did not even make an effort. ESPECIALLY since my mom bought me a new phone and I was already over everything and didn't seem grateful at ALL! I really am a bitch. Ugh.
b) I'm going to wrap the one and only gift I got for ANYONE. That's right! I'm AWFUL!! And what's worse is that I honestly don't give a shit at ALL. My brother and sister are being smothered, as always, with worthless shit and nothing I could afford to give them would be worthwhile. I do feel a little sad about my mom. I'll divulge tomorrow... for reasons I can't reveal right now.
c) I'm going to get the stuff I need for my improvised costume for Claire's party tomorrow, which I AM excited for. Tis the season for parties for sure! Even if I think gifts are useless. Also, I'm going to take a JILLION pictures. I'd better make sure I charge my camera.
Also, here are somethings, financially that I'm worried about.
1) The breakdown of my computer. I feel like I should just get a regular PC and deal. Can't I just get a regular one for like $550?
2) Money to live during internship time. I need to start applying or thinking about it, but if I accept an internship for New York, how am I going to live?
3) More urgently, I have no money for books next semester!
Gah!! I hate everything!! I'm trying not to. I understand that I need to try harder!!
Plus, I really don't want to go to my aunt's Christmas Eve party this year because my mom has to work and I'll have no one to be awkward with.
Also, I have to remember to stay in BOSTON for spring break... because honestly... fuck this!
BUT TOMORROW I'M GOING TO BE BETTER.
a) Hopefully I'll be less negative as I am sick of myself. Especially since today I clearly did not even make an effort. ESPECIALLY since my mom bought me a new phone and I was already over everything and didn't seem grateful at ALL! I really am a bitch. Ugh.
b) I'm going to wrap the one and only gift I got for ANYONE. That's right! I'm AWFUL!! And what's worse is that I honestly don't give a shit at ALL. My brother and sister are being smothered, as always, with worthless shit and nothing I could afford to give them would be worthwhile. I do feel a little sad about my mom. I'll divulge tomorrow... for reasons I can't reveal right now.
c) I'm going to get the stuff I need for my improvised costume for Claire's party tomorrow, which I AM excited for. Tis the season for parties for sure! Even if I think gifts are useless. Also, I'm going to take a JILLION pictures. I'd better make sure I charge my camera.
Also, here are somethings, financially that I'm worried about.
1) The breakdown of my computer. I feel like I should just get a regular PC and deal. Can't I just get a regular one for like $550?
2) Money to live during internship time. I need to start applying or thinking about it, but if I accept an internship for New York, how am I going to live?
3) More urgently, I have no money for books next semester!
Gah!! I hate everything!! I'm trying not to. I understand that I need to try harder!!
Plus, I really don't want to go to my aunt's Christmas Eve party this year because my mom has to work and I'll have no one to be awkward with.
Also, I have to remember to stay in BOSTON for spring break... because honestly... fuck this!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Home, With a Little More Clarity
Ok... I was clearly feeling really shitty when I wrote the last thing. BUUUT I just have to say that I am glad that I'm home. I really do miss my family and I obviously LOVE hanging out with my friends.
Being at home is just so stiffling sometimes. When I was on the bus home, I sat next to this woman who was visiting her daughter and grandchildren in Mount Laurel, New Jersey from her home in NYC. She said that even though she loves visiting, she sometimes feels like a prisoner because she can't drive so she can't go anywhere. That's kind of how I feel. It does make me feel SO LUCKY to be able to live in Boston though. Even though I know it could be a whole lot worse, I spent the entire day re-reading Harry Potter books. If I was in Boston by myself, I would guiltlessly sleep in, make myself 3 whole artichokes for dinner, watch Brick that I got from netflix, go to a new movie, paint, read. Basically how I spent Thanksgiving.
I think I'm just going to try to see my friends more. Today I felt a little queasy and a lot tired all day so I didn't even make an effort. Maybe we'll go to the art museum or something.
In better news, I got an A- in Writing for Television... so this semester COULD be my best GPA yet.
Being at home is just so stiffling sometimes. When I was on the bus home, I sat next to this woman who was visiting her daughter and grandchildren in Mount Laurel, New Jersey from her home in NYC. She said that even though she loves visiting, she sometimes feels like a prisoner because she can't drive so she can't go anywhere. That's kind of how I feel. It does make me feel SO LUCKY to be able to live in Boston though. Even though I know it could be a whole lot worse, I spent the entire day re-reading Harry Potter books. If I was in Boston by myself, I would guiltlessly sleep in, make myself 3 whole artichokes for dinner, watch Brick that I got from netflix, go to a new movie, paint, read. Basically how I spent Thanksgiving.
I think I'm just going to try to see my friends more. Today I felt a little queasy and a lot tired all day so I didn't even make an effort. Maybe we'll go to the art museum or something.
In better news, I got an A- in Writing for Television... so this semester COULD be my best GPA yet.
Vom-- Literally
Ok, I'm not going to TRY to be negative... but sometimes I get sooo depressed/angry at home. I mean, they mean well I guess... but sometimes I just freak out.
Side Note: I'm not saying it's a good thing, but since I'm usually happy, I'm glad that there are some things I don't like. That way I know that the things that I'm happy about are genuine.. that I'm not just in denial about sadness sometimes (I honestly get confused... whatever).
So yesterday I was freaking out and I couldn't decide what I wanted to do... and I didn't even want to be with anyone anymore. So I left the house, went to Applebees and got a chicken sandwich and mashed potatoes. Whatever. Only thing I ate.
Then at about midnight I went to bed and read Harry Potter. Then I started feeling icky and all burpy. And THEN around 1am I started nauseas and vomitted... EVERYTHING. I vomitted like every hour all night! And I had to go to the bathroom in between or had a false vomit alarm. I barely slept at all, and I was crying because I was too tired to throw up anymore!! And I was so thirsty but everytime I drank water, I threw up a lot of water.
Anyway, my whole family heard (impossible not to) and now they're very nice... although I just woke up 20 minutes ago so (it's 4:29pm)...
On a completely side note, I got an A- in anthro and an A- in video production!!! Lookin' good!
Side Note: I'm not saying it's a good thing, but since I'm usually happy, I'm glad that there are some things I don't like. That way I know that the things that I'm happy about are genuine.. that I'm not just in denial about sadness sometimes (I honestly get confused... whatever).
So yesterday I was freaking out and I couldn't decide what I wanted to do... and I didn't even want to be with anyone anymore. So I left the house, went to Applebees and got a chicken sandwich and mashed potatoes. Whatever. Only thing I ate.
Then at about midnight I went to bed and read Harry Potter. Then I started feeling icky and all burpy. And THEN around 1am I started nauseas and vomitted... EVERYTHING. I vomitted like every hour all night! And I had to go to the bathroom in between or had a false vomit alarm. I barely slept at all, and I was crying because I was too tired to throw up anymore!! And I was so thirsty but everytime I drank water, I threw up a lot of water.
Anyway, my whole family heard (impossible not to) and now they're very nice... although I just woke up 20 minutes ago so (it's 4:29pm)...
On a completely side note, I got an A- in anthro and an A- in video production!!! Lookin' good!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Pre-Home
Here's some more wonderful things!!
1) Last night I mentioned my blog to my roommate and she said she didn't want to see it because she thought it would be too happy and unrealistic... which I took as a huge compliment (even though that, in my opinion, isn't always true).
2) Finals are finished!! I REEEAAAALLY want my grades!! I finished my writing class like... a jillion years ago! I'll be patient... but.. not really!
3) Going home tomorrow!! I'm the most ready EVER! Except that I'm not sure which dvds I'm going to bring. I think I'm missing way more dvds than I thought because I'm missing a lot of dvd cases. I'll deal later but I need to rethink my loaning policy.
4) Also, Chords had one big heartattack about the songs we picked, which was pretty disheartening and also sad because there wasn't an easy solution, but now everyone is happy again! whooo!!!
1) Last night I mentioned my blog to my roommate and she said she didn't want to see it because she thought it would be too happy and unrealistic... which I took as a huge compliment (even though that, in my opinion, isn't always true).
2) Finals are finished!! I REEEAAAALLY want my grades!! I finished my writing class like... a jillion years ago! I'll be patient... but.. not really!
3) Going home tomorrow!! I'm the most ready EVER! Except that I'm not sure which dvds I'm going to bring. I think I'm missing way more dvds than I thought because I'm missing a lot of dvd cases. I'll deal later but I need to rethink my loaning policy.
4) Also, Chords had one big heartattack about the songs we picked, which was pretty disheartening and also sad because there wasn't an easy solution, but now everyone is happy again! whooo!!!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
A Series of Wonderful Things
Ok, first of all, TODAY MY MOM TURNED FORTY!! Happy Birthday, mom! Her birthday is the only one I EVER remember... which is a lucky one, I think.
Secondly, we had our pitch party and I honestly can't decide which is the more exciting news to report. That we ARE doing "Soon We'll be Found" by Sia, which is my DREAM!!! OOOOOOOOOORRRRR that IIII (with Cayla) am arranging a BRITNEY MEDLEY!!!!!!!!
GET IT?? I'M REALLY EXCITED!!!
We're also singing:
"If I Never See Your Face Again" by Maroon 5, featuring Rhianna
"Speeding Cars" by Imogen Heap
and "He Can Only Hold Her" by Amy Winehouse!
I'm REALLY pleased!! But also, yesterday Kevin when to the iStore and used my gift certificate to get $50 in itunes money. So I basically bought every song that was pitched! That's basically my favorite part of pitch parties. Now I have so much good music!
ALSO, my boss gave me $25 in Barnes and Noble money. I've never gotten a real Christmas gift by a boss before. That's SO NICE!!
AAAAALSO, and this is also SUPER AMAZING, I was looking through my email and I got one about film and television classes that are still open. So I open it up and video production 2 is in there, WITH MY LIKE.. FAVORITE PROFESSOR, which I really wanted but was a lottery class. ANYWAY, now I'm signed up for the class!!! AND it's replacing GREEK DRAMA, which was my least fun sounding class ever (see previous entry on how classic literature courses make me want to vomit)!!!
HURRAAAAY!! Now I just have to study for my damn final!!!
Secondly, we had our pitch party and I honestly can't decide which is the more exciting news to report. That we ARE doing "Soon We'll be Found" by Sia, which is my DREAM!!! OOOOOOOOOORRRRR that IIII (with Cayla) am arranging a BRITNEY MEDLEY!!!!!!!!
GET IT?? I'M REALLY EXCITED!!!
We're also singing:
"If I Never See Your Face Again" by Maroon 5, featuring Rhianna
"Speeding Cars" by Imogen Heap
and "He Can Only Hold Her" by Amy Winehouse!
I'm REALLY pleased!! But also, yesterday Kevin when to the iStore and used my gift certificate to get $50 in itunes money. So I basically bought every song that was pitched! That's basically my favorite part of pitch parties. Now I have so much good music!
ALSO, my boss gave me $25 in Barnes and Noble money. I've never gotten a real Christmas gift by a boss before. That's SO NICE!!
AAAAALSO, and this is also SUPER AMAZING, I was looking through my email and I got one about film and television classes that are still open. So I open it up and video production 2 is in there, WITH MY LIKE.. FAVORITE PROFESSOR, which I really wanted but was a lottery class. ANYWAY, now I'm signed up for the class!!! AND it's replacing GREEK DRAMA, which was my least fun sounding class ever (see previous entry on how classic literature courses make me want to vomit)!!!
HURRAAAAY!! Now I just have to study for my damn final!!!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
KEVIN IS HERE. And More.
Ok, here are ALL the deals.
1) KEVIN IS HERE RIGHT NOW!! Also, he is staying indefinitely a' la Natalya. Last night was nice because we hung out with Rachael and Amanda for a while, and then we came back to my place with Amanda, and then Elena and Matt came over. AND Katherine was there. So it was a nice little reunion.
2) ALSO, Kevin has a JILLION PICTURES of Australia. Like... a JILLION!!! We looked at them for like... an hour (possibly literally) and we STILL haven't seen them all. I'm just saying... I might not even NEED to go to Australia because I already know everything now.
3) I have another money situation. I started getting really nervous because my next paycheck isn't until Friday (which is after I leave) and I don't have direct deposit. Usually, I can think of SOME way that I can get money quickly... (like how I counted all of my coins before) but I couldn't think of any. That is, until last night, when I brilliantly decided to sell back my books!!
BUT I should really see if I can get direct deposit now because otherwise I'll just have $120 sitting at BU while I'm poor at home/in Colorado.
4) I got a package from my grandma JoAnne yesterday! They were earrings that she bought for me when she thought she was going to see me in the summer. She has VERY excellent taste. My grandma, my mother, and I have very similar taste in jewelry.
5) Tonight is our pitch party. I still haven't decided which songs I'm going to pitch. I know one will be "Soon We'll be Found" by Sia, which is a TRULY amazing song!! Usually I don't become attached to songs instantly, but this one played on Letterman like... two weeks ago and I've been OBSESSED since. I think I might pitch new or old Britney, because... as an all girls group, we might want to have a little ode to her.
6) I hope I really do study for my exam. I'm worried that I won't care enough about it and then I'll fail the class. It's impossible to know how I'm doing in it right now, as I cannot recall any grades. Damn. I'm just worried especially because if Kevin stays I might get really distracted.
7) I saw Forgetting Sarah Marshall the other day, which was pretty good. Mila Kunis is GORGIOUS!! I do really like the Judd Apatow humor because it pushes the edge of what's appropriate but in a different way than Adam Sandler or Will Ferrell. I did write more, but then I erased it because I thought it sounded foolish. I just think if you read a Judd Apatow script, you'd know it was him.... in a good way.
I also saw The Last King of Scotland. Forrest Whitaker was OBVIOUSLY amazing and James McAvoy was OBVIOUSLY attractive but nothing really special. I also saw this movie called Mysterious Skins, because I'm having a brief, but defined, obsession with Joseph Gordon-Levitt. It was like... the scariest thing ever. Actually there were only a few parts that made me want to die... but they're kind of ingrained. It's primarily about the effects of child sexual harrassment. I'd recommend on the level of Alpha Dog, meaning it's almost not great except I love it, and it's really dark.
8) Last thing... but all of my shows are over until the new year (I'm specifically talking about The Daily Show, The Colbert Report, The Office, and 30 Rock), which I guess is fine (except not really). BUUUUUUT, I've actually spent a lot of time thinking about what I should do when my shows are back on but I'm in Colorado. Like... should I just not watch them? ISN'T THAT THE WORST THING YOU'VE EVER HEARD!?? That I have to put thought into that. When I haven't seen my dad in 1.5 years!!!
Yes. I think so too.
9) Also, I still need to remember that finding an internship is the most important thing to do. I wonder how much money I could reasonably get by working a lot next semester? I guess I need to discuss with my mom. I still haven't picked out a computer and here's what I'm thinking. Maybe I'll just collect money for surviving next year at my internship. The only problem is that my computer is dying. And especially when I'm alone in the summer, what am I going to do without a computer? Right now, I'm using a computer in the computer lab. Maybe I can intern through BU over the summer in LA and get housing. Actually though, I think I'd need a car and a license to go there. But I don't think BU does a New York program. And I'd love to just stay in Boston. Maybe I can get an off campus apartment and start living there over the summer. But then I would need a roommate who could do that too or I'd be paying for them, right? Plus, I would need to start NOW if that was going to be my plan.
Do you ever not consider things in your personal realm of possibility and then you remember that they totally are!? Like, I never even THINK of going abroad because... I just never consider myself going abroad. There isn't anything to it at all. I just don't consider that within my means even though it totally is. Same with an off-campus apartment. I just never considered that to be an option. To be honest, I didn't even consider an ON-campus apartment until I accidently got into one.
My grandpa and I agree that I'm really low on ambition. Which I know sounds like an AWFUL thing to say... but also I'm happy like... ALL the time.
Whatever. I think I need to talk these things out with my mom or someone in an office. Ugh, I'm having a sleepy-pocket just THINKING of it. Decisions suck.
1) KEVIN IS HERE RIGHT NOW!! Also, he is staying indefinitely a' la Natalya. Last night was nice because we hung out with Rachael and Amanda for a while, and then we came back to my place with Amanda, and then Elena and Matt came over. AND Katherine was there. So it was a nice little reunion.
2) ALSO, Kevin has a JILLION PICTURES of Australia. Like... a JILLION!!! We looked at them for like... an hour (possibly literally) and we STILL haven't seen them all. I'm just saying... I might not even NEED to go to Australia because I already know everything now.
3) I have another money situation. I started getting really nervous because my next paycheck isn't until Friday (which is after I leave) and I don't have direct deposit. Usually, I can think of SOME way that I can get money quickly... (like how I counted all of my coins before) but I couldn't think of any. That is, until last night, when I brilliantly decided to sell back my books!!
BUT I should really see if I can get direct deposit now because otherwise I'll just have $120 sitting at BU while I'm poor at home/in Colorado.
4) I got a package from my grandma JoAnne yesterday! They were earrings that she bought for me when she thought she was going to see me in the summer. She has VERY excellent taste. My grandma, my mother, and I have very similar taste in jewelry.
5) Tonight is our pitch party. I still haven't decided which songs I'm going to pitch. I know one will be "Soon We'll be Found" by Sia, which is a TRULY amazing song!! Usually I don't become attached to songs instantly, but this one played on Letterman like... two weeks ago and I've been OBSESSED since. I think I might pitch new or old Britney, because... as an all girls group, we might want to have a little ode to her.
6) I hope I really do study for my exam. I'm worried that I won't care enough about it and then I'll fail the class. It's impossible to know how I'm doing in it right now, as I cannot recall any grades. Damn. I'm just worried especially because if Kevin stays I might get really distracted.
7) I saw Forgetting Sarah Marshall the other day, which was pretty good. Mila Kunis is GORGIOUS!! I do really like the Judd Apatow humor because it pushes the edge of what's appropriate but in a different way than Adam Sandler or Will Ferrell. I did write more, but then I erased it because I thought it sounded foolish. I just think if you read a Judd Apatow script, you'd know it was him.... in a good way.
I also saw The Last King of Scotland. Forrest Whitaker was OBVIOUSLY amazing and James McAvoy was OBVIOUSLY attractive but nothing really special. I also saw this movie called Mysterious Skins, because I'm having a brief, but defined, obsession with Joseph Gordon-Levitt. It was like... the scariest thing ever. Actually there were only a few parts that made me want to die... but they're kind of ingrained. It's primarily about the effects of child sexual harrassment. I'd recommend on the level of Alpha Dog, meaning it's almost not great except I love it, and it's really dark.
8) Last thing... but all of my shows are over until the new year (I'm specifically talking about The Daily Show, The Colbert Report, The Office, and 30 Rock), which I guess is fine (except not really). BUUUUUUT, I've actually spent a lot of time thinking about what I should do when my shows are back on but I'm in Colorado. Like... should I just not watch them? ISN'T THAT THE WORST THING YOU'VE EVER HEARD!?? That I have to put thought into that. When I haven't seen my dad in 1.5 years!!!
Yes. I think so too.
9) Also, I still need to remember that finding an internship is the most important thing to do. I wonder how much money I could reasonably get by working a lot next semester? I guess I need to discuss with my mom. I still haven't picked out a computer and here's what I'm thinking. Maybe I'll just collect money for surviving next year at my internship. The only problem is that my computer is dying. And especially when I'm alone in the summer, what am I going to do without a computer? Right now, I'm using a computer in the computer lab. Maybe I can intern through BU over the summer in LA and get housing. Actually though, I think I'd need a car and a license to go there. But I don't think BU does a New York program. And I'd love to just stay in Boston. Maybe I can get an off campus apartment and start living there over the summer. But then I would need a roommate who could do that too or I'd be paying for them, right? Plus, I would need to start NOW if that was going to be my plan.
Do you ever not consider things in your personal realm of possibility and then you remember that they totally are!? Like, I never even THINK of going abroad because... I just never consider myself going abroad. There isn't anything to it at all. I just don't consider that within my means even though it totally is. Same with an off-campus apartment. I just never considered that to be an option. To be honest, I didn't even consider an ON-campus apartment until I accidently got into one.
My grandpa and I agree that I'm really low on ambition. Which I know sounds like an AWFUL thing to say... but also I'm happy like... ALL the time.
Whatever. I think I need to talk these things out with my mom or someone in an office. Ugh, I'm having a sleepy-pocket just THINKING of it. Decisions suck.
Friday, December 12, 2008
A Good Catch Up
I just have to mention a few great things.
1) KEVIN IS COMING OVER TOMORROW!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
2) Today we screened our final movies for class! It was wonderful!
3) Yesterday we premiered "Heart of the Matter," which I arranged. Twas successful!
4) Only one final to go!!!
5) Going home the 18th.
6) Officially going to Colorado from January 2-January 11
I have to
-clean my room
-do my laundry
-do the dishes
before KEVIN COMES OVER!!
1) KEVIN IS COMING OVER TOMORROW!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
2) Today we screened our final movies for class! It was wonderful!
3) Yesterday we premiered "Heart of the Matter," which I arranged. Twas successful!
4) Only one final to go!!!
5) Going home the 18th.
6) Officially going to Colorado from January 2-January 11
I have to
-clean my room
-do my laundry
-do the dishes
before KEVIN COMES OVER!!
Friday, December 5, 2008
Some Words About Some Things
I have so many things to talk about, I have to write a list so I don't forget:
1) movie
2) money
3) internship
4) Italian guy
5) writing inspiration
6) Christmas
Intrigued? Good! Let us begin.
1) So I'm directing our final project for my video production class. So we started filming yesterday (I was out of my house ONLY for shooting from 10:30am to 8:30pm). Anyway, it is WAY scarier than you might think. I thought we were going to do scenes in 3 separate locations (technically four but one was easy), and that we were going to start setting up at 12:30pm. So I woke up at 10:00, go together a shit-ton of props, went to the computer lab to create a "missing bunny" sign, got props from a group member who had work, and had a quick lunch. But at 12:00pm the girl was supposed to get the camera LEFT to get the camera and it was obviously going to take longer. Long story short, all three of us halled the stuff (HEAVY DUDE! HEAVY!) and got to our location at 1pm. THEN our actor didn't show up until 1:40ish. Whatever. So we shoot 4 scenes in one location, and then the guy asks me when we're going to be done (it's about 3:15). BUT I had planned on 2 more big scenes in two different locations! He said he had to leave for a dinner at 6pm. SOOOO I cut the last location and moved it to Sunday. Then we did this bank scene, which we did in the mail room because it has a counter that we could go behind. BUT because we were REALLY in the way, I got REALLY paranoid about time. SO we shot it really fast!
Because we had to quit so early, I decided that I would at least edit the stuff we have, and everyone, including Stephanie, who wasn't at the shoot, came to edit too. WELL, after looking at the footage again, I felt like I had done NO good shots!! I mean... they were clear and told the story... but for all intents and purposes, it might as well have been a play. I mean, not quite... but it still felt bad. ESPECIALLY because I feel like I'm usually pretty good at getting good shots. BUT since my crew ALSO had to be acting, it was SOOOO hard to keep the actors under control and doing what you want and STILL think about the camera and STILL keeping track of time.
I'm just nervous because I feel like it's really riding on me. I'm not TOTALLY sad that I wrote a comedy, but it would have been much easier to make interesting shots if it was a horror. But I did a comedy because... I feel like a team of all girls wouldn't usually do a comedy. And I feel like comedic WRITING is harder. I don't know. I'm just really worried. BUUUUUT it is really fun.
2) So, as you know I'm money-retarded. Because of the recent Britney Spears explosion, I basically ran out of money. BUUUUUT my grandpa gave me $100 and I still haven't deposited all of the coins. So, because I have $14 in my checking account and $20 in my savings (yeah... awkward), I decided it was time to deposit my $100 check (I can't afford to overdraw again). So, I went to my job to get my check. I wasn't sure what the check situation was because... well I need to tell a little tale.
Three times this year I have forgotten to write down my hours online... and thus I don't get a check. Now I KNOW this is retarded, which is why I never discuss. I mean, I'm sure that my boss wouldn't REALLY care if I told her that I forgot and she had to do it manually. I KNOW this. But for some reason, I can't escape feeling responsible. I KNOOOOOOOWWWW this is retarded. I TRIED... (I mean obviously not that hard) to ask her... but I just couldn't live with it. I consider it my bill for being irresponsible. So whatever, I've lost about $160 from doing this.
Anyway, I went to get my check, which I haven't done in a while because I forgot to log my hours. Well, I guess I waited a long time because I had THREE checks when I went to pick them up. Which, funnily enough, I had the LAST TIME I went to get my checks. Time is confusing for me.
THE POINT IS, I had about $120 instead of $40 like I thought. LUCKY!! I kind of like that I do that, even though the lady makes funny and says she's weary of students that don't need their money every week (b'scuse me?! Why do you care?), because I've been REALLY stingy with my money so I didn't overdraw. SO THERE!
3) I need an internship this summer. My writing teacher asked us what internship opportunity connections we could find from our friends and family over break. I almost had a heartattack. It's one of those situations like finding a college where I feel like my family is way more useless than other families and that I have no connections! I'm obviously not saying my parents are bad, but they really are only helpful when it comes to medical things... which has never been useful to me in my entire life. I KNOW that other people don't have like... AMAZING parents who help them with everything... but I always feel like other parents have more of a vested interest in their kid's connections and whatever.
ANYWAY, I told my teacher that my uncle produces a local news station in upstate New York (that's true except I don't know if he produces. He does SOMETHING major). BUT I will not be chilling with my uncle... and I do NOT want to do news... (and you shouldn't start with things you don't want to do). WELL, my teacher was very encouraging. She tells us that she has a really good instinct about what people want to do and whatever. I'm not sure about that... but she did tell one girl that she might want to be a teacher (which I kind of thought was insulting... but whatever). She told another girl that it seems like she wants to do sports. The girl agreed. WELL, when I told her I was going to look for something OTHER than my uncle's news station, she told me that I probably "wanted something in fiction, probably something in HBO... like being a reader for them." It was the GREATEST GIFT OF ALL!!! I was like YES! PLEASE!!! THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO DO!! I'm so glad she saw that in me. And she told me it's totally possible to get that kind of an internship!
So now, armed with this new encouragement, I really need to look for a good internship!! Now... I know that this is retarded... but I have NO MONEY and I CAN'T DRIVE!!! So, over winter break I need to be looking for places to apply... but I can basically only apply for things in New York because I really can't go to LA until I learn how to drive. BUUUUT how am I going to live there? Even if I got another job next semester, would I be able to make enough to be able to live through the summer in New York. BUUUUUT, I really feel like I need to be ambitious because you really need to get started when you're young. And, if you don't get an internship, you basically can't get a job.
This is my semi-longterm goal.
4) Today this guy, who came to Boston from Naples in 2002, came to our food anthro class to talk about the North End (which is where the Italians of Boston are. BUUUUT he was so interesting because he was an anthropologist studying Italian-Americans! That's SO AWESOME!
5) This is kind of a part 2 to number 3, but today while we were waiting to read some scripts my teacher told us that it was really important to remember that it doesn't really matter what teachers and whatever say about your writing. The executive producer of Seinfeld got a bad grade in Harvard and he used to flash the bad paper at the end of each episode. She said that the fear of writing teachers is to make sure that they don't make anyone stop writing. So she said that although she's telling you stuff she thinks is right, you should just be persistant and do what you think is good because the successful people are the people who are persistant and sometimes brilliant people aren't as successful because they doubt themselves. This morning I was feeling pretty ill (I still kind am just weak and stuffed up and coughy), and my teacher isn't usually so sentamental... and anyway, it was such a nice moment because I feel like I fall victim to self-doubt and worrying about the legitimacy of everything that I do and feeling like people are better than I am ... And it was so nice of her to say those things. Anyway, I almost cried. Like, my eyes teared up. Which shows you how fucking WEEPY I've been recently. Like... anything in the world will make me cry! I asked my grandma if I was deficient in some vitamin that would make me cry at happy things all the time. She said I was just getting to be a more sensative person and that that was a good thing. Whatevs.
6) Christmas is soon. I wanted to paint for my mom and dad but now I don't think I'll have the time. I still haven't sent my painting to my grandparents. Lame.
KEEP A' CHUGGIN', FOLKS!! YOU SHALL SURVIVE THIS TIME!!
Today at the bank I saw this sign and it said "Remember, today is the same day you were worrying about yesterday." Very appropriate for this time of year.
(By the way, I STILL haven't had any caffeine!!)
1) movie
2) money
3) internship
4) Italian guy
5) writing inspiration
6) Christmas
Intrigued? Good! Let us begin.
1) So I'm directing our final project for my video production class. So we started filming yesterday (I was out of my house ONLY for shooting from 10:30am to 8:30pm). Anyway, it is WAY scarier than you might think. I thought we were going to do scenes in 3 separate locations (technically four but one was easy), and that we were going to start setting up at 12:30pm. So I woke up at 10:00, go together a shit-ton of props, went to the computer lab to create a "missing bunny" sign, got props from a group member who had work, and had a quick lunch. But at 12:00pm the girl was supposed to get the camera LEFT to get the camera and it was obviously going to take longer. Long story short, all three of us halled the stuff (HEAVY DUDE! HEAVY!) and got to our location at 1pm. THEN our actor didn't show up until 1:40ish. Whatever. So we shoot 4 scenes in one location, and then the guy asks me when we're going to be done (it's about 3:15). BUT I had planned on 2 more big scenes in two different locations! He said he had to leave for a dinner at 6pm. SOOOO I cut the last location and moved it to Sunday. Then we did this bank scene, which we did in the mail room because it has a counter that we could go behind. BUT because we were REALLY in the way, I got REALLY paranoid about time. SO we shot it really fast!
Because we had to quit so early, I decided that I would at least edit the stuff we have, and everyone, including Stephanie, who wasn't at the shoot, came to edit too. WELL, after looking at the footage again, I felt like I had done NO good shots!! I mean... they were clear and told the story... but for all intents and purposes, it might as well have been a play. I mean, not quite... but it still felt bad. ESPECIALLY because I feel like I'm usually pretty good at getting good shots. BUT since my crew ALSO had to be acting, it was SOOOO hard to keep the actors under control and doing what you want and STILL think about the camera and STILL keeping track of time.
I'm just nervous because I feel like it's really riding on me. I'm not TOTALLY sad that I wrote a comedy, but it would have been much easier to make interesting shots if it was a horror. But I did a comedy because... I feel like a team of all girls wouldn't usually do a comedy. And I feel like comedic WRITING is harder. I don't know. I'm just really worried. BUUUUUT it is really fun.
2) So, as you know I'm money-retarded. Because of the recent Britney Spears explosion, I basically ran out of money. BUUUUUT my grandpa gave me $100 and I still haven't deposited all of the coins. So, because I have $14 in my checking account and $20 in my savings (yeah... awkward), I decided it was time to deposit my $100 check (I can't afford to overdraw again). So, I went to my job to get my check. I wasn't sure what the check situation was because... well I need to tell a little tale.
Three times this year I have forgotten to write down my hours online... and thus I don't get a check. Now I KNOW this is retarded, which is why I never discuss. I mean, I'm sure that my boss wouldn't REALLY care if I told her that I forgot and she had to do it manually. I KNOW this. But for some reason, I can't escape feeling responsible. I KNOOOOOOOWWWW this is retarded. I TRIED... (I mean obviously not that hard) to ask her... but I just couldn't live with it. I consider it my bill for being irresponsible. So whatever, I've lost about $160 from doing this.
Anyway, I went to get my check, which I haven't done in a while because I forgot to log my hours. Well, I guess I waited a long time because I had THREE checks when I went to pick them up. Which, funnily enough, I had the LAST TIME I went to get my checks. Time is confusing for me.
THE POINT IS, I had about $120 instead of $40 like I thought. LUCKY!! I kind of like that I do that, even though the lady makes funny and says she's weary of students that don't need their money every week (b'scuse me?! Why do you care?), because I've been REALLY stingy with my money so I didn't overdraw. SO THERE!
3) I need an internship this summer. My writing teacher asked us what internship opportunity connections we could find from our friends and family over break. I almost had a heartattack. It's one of those situations like finding a college where I feel like my family is way more useless than other families and that I have no connections! I'm obviously not saying my parents are bad, but they really are only helpful when it comes to medical things... which has never been useful to me in my entire life. I KNOW that other people don't have like... AMAZING parents who help them with everything... but I always feel like other parents have more of a vested interest in their kid's connections and whatever.
ANYWAY, I told my teacher that my uncle produces a local news station in upstate New York (that's true except I don't know if he produces. He does SOMETHING major). BUT I will not be chilling with my uncle... and I do NOT want to do news... (and you shouldn't start with things you don't want to do). WELL, my teacher was very encouraging. She tells us that she has a really good instinct about what people want to do and whatever. I'm not sure about that... but she did tell one girl that she might want to be a teacher (which I kind of thought was insulting... but whatever). She told another girl that it seems like she wants to do sports. The girl agreed. WELL, when I told her I was going to look for something OTHER than my uncle's news station, she told me that I probably "wanted something in fiction, probably something in HBO... like being a reader for them." It was the GREATEST GIFT OF ALL!!! I was like YES! PLEASE!!! THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO DO!! I'm so glad she saw that in me. And she told me it's totally possible to get that kind of an internship!
So now, armed with this new encouragement, I really need to look for a good internship!! Now... I know that this is retarded... but I have NO MONEY and I CAN'T DRIVE!!! So, over winter break I need to be looking for places to apply... but I can basically only apply for things in New York because I really can't go to LA until I learn how to drive. BUUUUT how am I going to live there? Even if I got another job next semester, would I be able to make enough to be able to live through the summer in New York. BUUUUUT, I really feel like I need to be ambitious because you really need to get started when you're young. And, if you don't get an internship, you basically can't get a job.
This is my semi-longterm goal.
4) Today this guy, who came to Boston from Naples in 2002, came to our food anthro class to talk about the North End (which is where the Italians of Boston are. BUUUUT he was so interesting because he was an anthropologist studying Italian-Americans! That's SO AWESOME!
5) This is kind of a part 2 to number 3, but today while we were waiting to read some scripts my teacher told us that it was really important to remember that it doesn't really matter what teachers and whatever say about your writing. The executive producer of Seinfeld got a bad grade in Harvard and he used to flash the bad paper at the end of each episode. She said that the fear of writing teachers is to make sure that they don't make anyone stop writing. So she said that although she's telling you stuff she thinks is right, you should just be persistant and do what you think is good because the successful people are the people who are persistant and sometimes brilliant people aren't as successful because they doubt themselves. This morning I was feeling pretty ill (I still kind am just weak and stuffed up and coughy), and my teacher isn't usually so sentamental... and anyway, it was such a nice moment because I feel like I fall victim to self-doubt and worrying about the legitimacy of everything that I do and feeling like people are better than I am ... And it was so nice of her to say those things. Anyway, I almost cried. Like, my eyes teared up. Which shows you how fucking WEEPY I've been recently. Like... anything in the world will make me cry! I asked my grandma if I was deficient in some vitamin that would make me cry at happy things all the time. She said I was just getting to be a more sensative person and that that was a good thing. Whatevs.
6) Christmas is soon. I wanted to paint for my mom and dad but now I don't think I'll have the time. I still haven't sent my painting to my grandparents. Lame.
KEEP A' CHUGGIN', FOLKS!! YOU SHALL SURVIVE THIS TIME!!
Today at the bank I saw this sign and it said "Remember, today is the same day you were worrying about yesterday." Very appropriate for this time of year.
(By the way, I STILL haven't had any caffeine!!)
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
No Caffeine!
Finals time is such a funny time. Everyone is freaking out and everything comes together at once and you don't see how you could POSSIBLY get everything done. And EVERYONE feels the same exact way! It's funny that we do this twice a year. I was reading Claire's blog and she began her statements with a disclaimer about how lucky we really are, which is SO true and I love her for making some perspective. But it's sooo hard!!
Anyway, I'm really pleased with myself. Because I started sleeping during the day and staying up all night in my Thanksgiving solitude, I decided on Sunday that I couldn't drink any caffeine so I had a HOPE of going to bed at a reasonable hour (which I KIND OF did (in bed by 2:30, asleep by 3:15ish)). Then I woke up at 8:30am on Monday and was PERFECTLY fine, which was LUCKY. Although I passed out from like 4-9pm. Then I stayed up until like 3ish again. I did not drink ANY soda Monday either! (Which, if you don't know, is like... already a record since I drink 2 sodas on a bad day and 4 on a regular (I know it's bad)). Then Tuesday I woke up at 8:30am again. I did NOT take a nap. Rather, they took away the electricity from 1-5am Wednesday morning. I had to watch the Daily Show and Colbert Report and then I went to the 24 hour lab. I started working at about 12:45 and I thought I would be done around 3:30 ish. I ended up getting home around 5:30am!!! It took WAY longer than I thought! STILL NO CAFFEINE AT ALL!!! Then I woke up at 10am and stayed up doing work and going to class until 4pm. Then I went home, took a half hour snooze, ALMOST KILLED MYSELF when I had to get up again for my class at 5pm... but I DID IT!! With NO CAFFEINE!!
I know it doesn't seem that amazing... but I could not be more pleased with myself. Anyway, I'm going to quit soda... if that wasn't obvious. I'm up to 4 days. That's good. I actually started because I didn't get a headache at all when I didn't have any caffeine for more than 24 hours and I took it as a sign to quit while I'm ahead!
I have also been conditioning my hair so that I only have to wash it every other day! I'm proud of that too!!
Anyway, I'm really pleased with myself. Because I started sleeping during the day and staying up all night in my Thanksgiving solitude, I decided on Sunday that I couldn't drink any caffeine so I had a HOPE of going to bed at a reasonable hour (which I KIND OF did (in bed by 2:30, asleep by 3:15ish)). Then I woke up at 8:30am on Monday and was PERFECTLY fine, which was LUCKY. Although I passed out from like 4-9pm. Then I stayed up until like 3ish again. I did not drink ANY soda Monday either! (Which, if you don't know, is like... already a record since I drink 2 sodas on a bad day and 4 on a regular (I know it's bad)). Then Tuesday I woke up at 8:30am again. I did NOT take a nap. Rather, they took away the electricity from 1-5am Wednesday morning. I had to watch the Daily Show and Colbert Report and then I went to the 24 hour lab. I started working at about 12:45 and I thought I would be done around 3:30 ish. I ended up getting home around 5:30am!!! It took WAY longer than I thought! STILL NO CAFFEINE AT ALL!!! Then I woke up at 10am and stayed up doing work and going to class until 4pm. Then I went home, took a half hour snooze, ALMOST KILLED MYSELF when I had to get up again for my class at 5pm... but I DID IT!! With NO CAFFEINE!!
I know it doesn't seem that amazing... but I could not be more pleased with myself. Anyway, I'm going to quit soda... if that wasn't obvious. I'm up to 4 days. That's good. I actually started because I didn't get a headache at all when I didn't have any caffeine for more than 24 hours and I took it as a sign to quit while I'm ahead!
I have also been conditioning my hair so that I only have to wash it every other day! I'm proud of that too!!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
BRITNEY AGAIN!!
Ok, here is the NEW situation.
So remember how I had all of these money problems? Then I deposited my checks and got a check from my grandpa and I counted all my change and then I had SOME money.
Well... I semi-fucked it up... but I don't have regrets. BUT I spontaneously bought Britney Spears tickets (and am CURRENTLY buying her new album) for March 16!!! NO regrets!
So I bought TWO tickets... and it's actually really was annoying because I couldn't decide who to ask or who would be offended if I didn't ask them. Plus I was worried (a smidge) that maybe no one would want to go. I hope it works out. I'm SURE it will!
In OTHER good news, that paper that I STARTED writing at midnight the night before it was due without reading ANYTHING for it-- I got an A-. FUCK YEAH! I'm pretty super pleased with myself. Although I do need to make sure I don't fuck up that class still. It's funny that you're hardest classes you end up doing the best in... and it's the easy-ish classes that give me paranoia at the end of the semester because I have to catch up (bullshit) so much.
I'm a LITTLE nervous about the next... 9 days. We'll see how it goes.
So remember how I had all of these money problems? Then I deposited my checks and got a check from my grandpa and I counted all my change and then I had SOME money.
Well... I semi-fucked it up... but I don't have regrets. BUT I spontaneously bought Britney Spears tickets (and am CURRENTLY buying her new album) for March 16!!! NO regrets!
So I bought TWO tickets... and it's actually really was annoying because I couldn't decide who to ask or who would be offended if I didn't ask them. Plus I was worried (a smidge) that maybe no one would want to go. I hope it works out. I'm SURE it will!
In OTHER good news, that paper that I STARTED writing at midnight the night before it was due without reading ANYTHING for it-- I got an A-. FUCK YEAH! I'm pretty super pleased with myself. Although I do need to make sure I don't fuck up that class still. It's funny that you're hardest classes you end up doing the best in... and it's the easy-ish classes that give me paranoia at the end of the semester because I have to catch up (bullshit) so much.
I'm a LITTLE nervous about the next... 9 days. We'll see how it goes.
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